Twilight

Perfection in your design of no color, no beginning no end no distraction of sight
so comforting is the coolness that blankets me
So divine that you anchor me to almost float but never move
So clever to nourish me only with so little to never waste a drop
This must be a heaven created for me… but if I was dead, then what is this damn flicker within me.
If only the night could extinguish this damn heat inside of me
I must keep the cool blankets of the night held tight in my fists to keep me safe
as my thoughts wander on how to extinguish the flame it grow
tighter & tighter I pull my blankets closer…. Take this heat out of my chest I have no use for it
as I sit & ponder how I can free myself of this burden, I start to wonder how it got there
My friend would never torture me with such pain
I know what fire is I think as I saw it once in a dream and I know it does not belong here…
Oh sweet friend, are you angry I have this heat with me?
Should I take it away?
the light that is growing within me will surely leak out…rip through my skin and ruin my heaven
Oh fickle paradise… I should take this away and save you for the gifts you have given me.
with deepest gratitude I must save you… I will stand now and free you of the burden of me
and yet the blankets feel so heavy… I must be dying .. This pain of this fire is killing me
I have to leave… but I can't move… in the most desperate of moments I hear something
it is a sound of screaming… and it is coming form the fire .. From me
the most desperate plea… I have to save my friend…scream scream scream at me & get me to move
I scream until the sound stops… which makes me pause. I had removed the blankets in my fervor
then I realize the destruction has begun.. My eyes are open.
I turn my head and with that the most intense pain shot straight though my head...my eyes are open.
There is a glistening that has begun to tear apart the horizon of my home
blinking maddeningly I struggle to understand what I see… and realize the light must be coming from me.
This poison pouring out of me starts drawing lines and I sob as I watch the home I have loved crumble
I cry an the warmth is washing over me… I am surely dying… and this newly illuminated place I don’t know must be hell.
overwhelmed with disorientation I flail my arms out in an effort to find that blanket of coolness…
I reach out for cold comfort and the reassurance of void, aching to anchor again
there is something there… something warm.. Even hot to the touch… a warmth that is familiar… like that flicker within
though this is not my safe place, there is a familiarity to it, a deeper knowing that I should turn my head
a sense that I will turn around and see the light within me…
I turn my head to see, and there is something there .. No wait someone there.
I know her… is she here to help me find my way back to the darkness… ?
I finally have the help I have longed for… friend… I am getting warm… help me
suddenly I find a hand holding mine…gently but firmly I start feeling a breeze and realize I am moving
I am not going toward the night… I am being pulled away… wait… let go please
this is too bright… my eyes.. Are straining to see… the outlines of the world around me coming to life…
The warmth surges through me and finally I can see… I am not dead… I am finally alive
I find myself in the twilight of morning surrounded by a weird world that was here all along hidden from me…
Cruel night, I am betrayed…as I begin to hate you, with gratitude I have to leave you...
With the simple loving touch of a friend I am set free from a prison I didn't understand,
with deepest gratitude and loyalty I will walk beside you to protect you from the night that will surely come again.